Assalamualaikum...
Hari ni dah 20 hari kite berpuasa....next week InsyaAllah dah raya kan?
Nad nye milk production makin turun la...risau plak...
hurm.......entry nad kali ni..nad juz nak share nad nye experienced being a mom....
Nad slalu pk, boleh ke nad jage anak?ready ke nad nak ade anak? Jage anak??
TRUST me...bile u dh melahirkan n dah nampak baby tu depan mata..naluri keibuan tu terus automatic ade.
Bile nad deliver babies...unfortunately my babies xboleh bersama dgn nad...
Dioerg kene dok dlm NICU coz of premature labor at 33 weeks...
Walaupon babies xde dgn nad...tp mase beberapa jam nad lahirkan dieorg tu...nad rase rindu sgt...
mcm ade sesuatu yg kurang bile babies xde dgn kite...
Padahal mase tu blom lagi bonding dgn babies...ye la, pas deliver..doctor trus amik babies...xtunjuk langsung dekat nad.
Nad sayu...rindu....mcm dah lame bersama dgn babies...ye la, almost 8 month plus dlm perut kan?
Sebab tu...wlupon nad sakit..xleh jalan..nad tetap kuatkan hati pegi gak NICU tgk babies..coz nad rase bile tgk babies..sume kesakitan yg nad tanggung tu hilang.
Walaupon mase tu babies asik tido...tapi nad still ckp2 dgn dieorg...
kdg2 dieorg senyum..mcm bg semangat kat nad :)
Bile nad n hubby dtg..kdg2 tetibe babies buka mata...mcm tau2 je mama n abah die dtg....pandai anak mama ni!
Sampai doctor kat NICU pon mcm ckp kat nad...wow, bgs u eh..duduk sini lama2..xpenat ke?
nad senyum je...mau xpenat....dah la baru bersalin..czer plak tu..pastu xberpantang..xmengurut sume..fooohhhhhhh! lagi berjalan2...NGERI BEB!!!
Nad pon ngeri...tp tu la yang terpakse nad lalui...
mase dlm NICU, before nak balik tu..nad kene rooming in dgn babies...
Ha, mase tu la...nad dah rase my life change 360 degrees!!!
hahaahahah, jgn harap la nak tido....
kang tgh feeding Alesya...Arissa plak nanges...or sebaliknye...
Mase kat NICU, nad xtido langsung straight for 4 days!!!!
hahaahhaahh..serious rase cm zombie..mcm badan je jejak bumi...otak n fikiran xtau ke mana.
Mase tu nad nak sgt bwk babies balik coz i really need a rest...
Mase bwk balik tu..hahahah, mmg kelam kabut jugakla jaga..
ye la, nad berdua je dgn hubby kat umah...
Babies nanges pon kiteorg xtau nak buat ape...
Now dah 2 months plus nad being a mom... :)
kdg2 xpercaya yg nad dah ade anak..heheheheh
Mmg now life nad changed 100% almost....
Now kalau ade sale or masuk shopping complex...dah xde dah nad shopping untuk diri sendri...sumenye untuk my lovely angels...
And skang dah xde mcm dulu nad nak pakai baju ketat2...kan xelok seorg ibu pakai pakaian yg menjolok mata...(chewahhhhhhhhh..padahal dah gmok, so kalau pakai bj ketat2..lemak tu terbonjol2 u ols!!!!) hahahhah
And nad noticed, nad lebih penyabar skang...
Nad ni mmg temper person..tp skang ni Alhamdulillah, nad cool down skit...
Erm, bile ade babies kan...jgn harap kite dapat tido senang lenang 8 jam tido shari ok!!!
Mimpi je la tu...skang pkol 5am nad dah siap2 pegi keje..pdhal baru masuk tido dlm pkol 12-1am mcmtu...tu blom lagi in between babies terjaga n bg susu...
Nasib baik hubby nad jenis yg phm n menolong..so kdg2 die bg nad tido lame skit...dpt la tido lame skit when he took care of the babies...
tapi kdg2 ksian gak kat hubby..mane leh die bjg lelame kan?so kite kene take turn...
Bile babies meragam, or mcm sakit...kiteorg xpernah jemu2 bawak pegi clinic or hospital...
Walaupon malam..pagi2 buta time org lain tgh tido...
Sejak kuar NICU, bile kiteorang rase something wrong..mmg cepat2 kiteorg bwk jumpe doctor...
Kdg2 maybe org ckp selsema je..tp, babies ni xboleh leka tau..
even selsema pon can be harmful to the baby...
Nad xmo amik risk, coz dieorg ni premature babies...
Sebab tu nad mmg monitor babies btol2....
Last Monday, babies selsema...nanges2 coz mcm susah nak nafas...
Nad pon bwk gi Ampang Puteri Hospital, jumpe Paeditrician.
Doctor yg available mase tu Dr Kumari...erm, masyaAllah..charges die mahal nak mampos!!
She charged me rm680 per baby!!!!
Erkkkkk, nad ade twins!
So mase nak bayar kat counter tu...nad ckp kat cashier tu..erm, maafla kak..saya xcukup duit...
lgpon ubat sama kan 2-2 for babies, so sy amik untuk sorang je la...
dieorg bleh share...tp dlm otak dah sumpah seranah dah..
gile wehhhhhhhh, rm1k+ for twins...
mcm sakit truk..pdhal selsema je...
Harap2 cepatla baik anak mama nih....
Lagi 1 masalah nad is
SUSU IBU!!!
Nad sedeh sgt coz nad nye susu xcukup untuk nad bg for both angels
Dahla babies xmo direct feed. Nad kene pam n letak dalam bottle.
Plak tu, kalau nad pump..dlm setengah jam, both miss B dpt la dlm 2 oz je..
mane cukup tuhhhhhhh :( :(
dah mcm2 nad try makan n minum..name it..makan sayur..minum horlick..susu..makan kurma...habbatus sauda..siap beli fenugreek tea...n dah amik ubat tambahkan susu from doctor..tu sume xjalan gak...
erm,pasrah je la...
nad mmg cemburu bile tgk org dapat susukan anak die..n bile dieorg pam...dpt berbotol2 susu..
Tapi nad??nak penuhkan 1 bottle pon xkesampaian lagi...
SEDEH! dah la premature babies mmg perlukan susu ibu!
Skang dieorg minum Enfalac A+. 1 tin susu about 900 gram boleh tahan dlm 4-5 days mcmtu...kalau sebulan??
Tu blom masuk pampers sume tu...
Skang nad pakai Mamy Poko...1 pampers tu dlm rm38. Seminggu babies pakai 2 pack pampers...
Hohohohohoh..byk kan expenses?
Kadang kadang nad risau...cukup ke duit kami nak tanggung babies?
Of course kami nakkan yg terbaik untuk babies kan?
InsyaAllah..ade rezki dieorg nanti kan?InsyaAllah...
Tahun ni nad raye kat Melaka...agak2 cmne nak bawak babies dlm kete tu eh?
Coz skang even from melawati-batu caves pon dieorg xsuke dok dlm basket tu..nak dukong..kalau dekat2..boleh la nad riba sorang n pegang sorang...
tp long journey cmne tuh?
Owh ye...bile nad dah start keje skang ni...rindu la kat babies...
Dah 2 ari nad EL coz babies xsihat...
Sepanjang nad keje almost 4 years..xpenah nad EL...
tapi nak wat cmne kan?my babies need me more....